changes..

fast forward to present.. yes we're still a couple but a lot has change.. arguements..fights... a lot.. i feel that she's different now although she insists that she's still the same girl i fell inlove with. i dont know if its just that she became busy with her work. i dont know i just dont know and no matter how many times we talk about it we cant come up with anything. there will be days when she cant even send a single text message and would give me a reason that she's just busy with work and if i wont buy that reason, we're just gonna fight it out so i'll just end up accepting her reason. she'd say i will never understand because i am selfish because the only thing i think about is myself... how can she possibly say that.. whats wrong with missing her.. whats wrong with wanting to talk to her or wanting to spend time with her on the phone.. is that being selfish? she'd say you dont understand because you're not the one who gets tired because all you do there is eat and sleep. yes i am already 23 i am the only guy in the family with my mom working and my sister having her own family basically its just me and my mom.. i dont have a work, i do nothing even if i want to even if i know i need to and even if it kills my pride i dont work, i dont go out. i dont have anybody to talk to because she doesnt want me to. now am i being selfish. i've told you this once, and i'll say it again because i know one day you'll read this.. i am no longer happy not a little, not a bit but i am sticking it out because i love you and thats the only feeling left i have.....