pains... it all started

this is one hell of a roller coaster ride.. the latter part of 2006 up to present is really a struggle for us that is as far as I am concern. i had multiple attempts of coming home but i never made it for multiple reasons i cant explain how or why it happened. she started to work sometime last june and little by little things change.. we hardly had time to do the same things we usually do before, although she's trying her best at times to still spend time with me. i remember i was having a hard time adjusting to her schedule and to the changes it made, our communication suffered the most and maybe its the same reason why we fight a lot but still we made a decision to go for it and just give extra understanding for each other. we fight over and over for the same reasons.. time.. on my part i just miss those days when she'd cry because we werent able to talk for a day.. now i can see that she's fine with that, she can live with that now.. come october of 2006 another trial came, i think it was one saturday, she never texted or anything, that even if called her up many times she wont answer God knows how i missed her that day.. i decided to check her friendster and just read every sweet messages we had for each other as soon as i open her page i saw some pictures and i never had any idea when and how it happened considering how busy she was like what she always tells me. pictures of her with her friends and the one person i least expected to be there, the guy being paired with my girl by her friends... it was taken at a karaoke bar i believe but im not quite sure where.. my girl seating beside the guy i hated the most with his hands on my girl's lap and their body leaning towards each other.. i felt numb for a moment.. i couldnt stand staring at their picture but at the same time i cant take my eyes away from it.. i was hurt.. big time....